I know you think I cannot do it. I know you think you were right when you told me not to do it. I know you want me to learn a hard lesson and come back saying sorry for having tried. I know you always said you are there to support but you never believed that I could do it. I know when you see me failing you think how right you were and how wrong was I. I know you think I took my life decisions wrong and hence I am in a mess. I know you think you are my well wisher but your doubt in me proves that you are not. I know you think you care for me but how can you when you are seldom there to encourage me. I know you think you will catch me when I fall but how will you do so when you are already saying in your heart ‘I told her so’. I know you are waiting for me to give up my way and take up yours.
I know that if I lose today I lose all that I have ever stood up for. I know if I give up today it would mean that I give up all the decisions I ever took. I know if I back out today I back out from taking part in my own life. I know that if it ends today my life will end what it was meant to be.
I know all this and so I have decided that I won’t.......
I won’t let you know that I have made up my mind to keep fighting. I won’t let you know about the pain you cause me by not believing. I won’t let you know that I am nowhere near giving up. I won’t let you know that you doubt have given me a bigger push. I won’t let you know that I am not a loser. I won’t let you know that I believe in myself and I will emerge out of it without your help. I won’t let you know that I trust myself more than I trust you. I won’t let you know that this is just the beginning and not an end you had foreseen.
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